Yesterday was my 24th Birthday and I have been thinking a lot lately about age. When we are little, our birthdays seem to bring another rite of passage, a year older and a few more responsibilities. Once we turn 21, what more is there to look forward to? Age no longer seems like a milestone but just a dreaded number. How morbid and depressing but that's how I used to feel.
A few months ago, I was really freaking out about my upcoming birthday. I think it was because of the deep rooted issue of waiting on God's plan for my life but more importantly waiting on life to begin. I connected on waiting for God to reveal His plan with waiting to begin my life. Well I was wrong. My life began 24 years ago and hasn't stopped since. But I was thinking more of my idea of life: a career (not just a job), a husband and children. I guess that was my definition of "having a life". So you might be able to deduce why I was freaking out on turing 24: I don't have a job let alone a career, I never even talk to boys so a husband isn't even close to happening, and therefore no children. Also I am in that age demographic where a lot of my friends are engaged, married or starting to have children and it's hard to look at them and realize that my life isn't close to that, yet. I was comparing my life to those around me and that was dragging me down.
I used to define doing something with my life as having a job, husband and kids but then I realized that wasn't realistic or even biblical. The Lord doesn't define doing His work by these standards so why should I? He is using me in a different way and my plan will unfold during His time. I have been reflecting on this for the past month or so because I wasn't truly happy because those are goals I have for my life (and I pray The Lord will fulfill) but I need to focus on the present. I have done quite a few things with my short 23 years. I'm not going to boost and have a giant list but I just wanted to share a few. I graduated from college which is a great accomplishment (I am the first person in my intermediate family to go to college straight from high school-my mom went back to get her BSN). I learned that I didn't want to study Biochemistry and perform research for the rest of my life. Lastly, I have also accepted God's plan right now for me to take care of my mom. She has come a long way in her recovery and I am proud to be part of it.
So there are a few of my thoughts on turning 24. I hope if you are in your 20's or even any age and have some of the same thoughts I had before about measuring your life according to others, you might reconsider and look at your life how God does: beautiful and perfect!